I'd like to quote Heidi again. I am reading through her blog journey from the beginning.
This morning I read this: In a way, I hope it is indication that he has delivered me. Dare I hope that? Hmm...
That one line resonated soooo loudly with me. When I began my Weigh Down journey 10 years ago, I felt so free and I KNEW that I was done with my eating issues.
But conversations with an older woman who had struggled with weight all her life introduced doubt. I don't recall exactly how she put it, but the message I got was that I better expect to fail eventually. She didn't have any confidence that my success would be permanent.
I don't blame her for my subsequent failure, but I will say that her words influenced me and I have recounted them again and again over the course of the last 10 years.
Now, I am at a crossroads. Dare I hope? I am going to choose to hope and trust that God is doing a new work in me. I am going to hope that He will heal my heart and my body along with it. Hope. Hope in the Lord.