I can't count how many times my intentions have been to lose weight. I've only ever been truly successful once in my life. But my entire adult life has been a battle. Well, more of a defeat I suppose.
But I feel that this is the time for me, once again. I feel a new commitment. I feel that I mean it. I remember the first time, I knew I meant it. I believe I mean it this time. I say that with this thing inside me that sort of cringes and says "ooooohhh, I sure hope so!"
I think many of us know our shortcomings. Mine is certainly a small will power. At least for certain things. I've done a lot of difficult things in my life, but fighting addiction is one of the hardest.
Most of us don't think of eating as an addictive behavior, but it is. I know it and I'm trying to face it now. I don't have a picture yet, but I will. I will take some today and I will put them in my journal, and maybe post them here. I don't have a scale, but perhaps I should buy one so I can track my progress. It's either depressing or encouraging when you have a scale, LOL.
I started yesterday and it went pretty well, except that in the evening, I really wanted to eat, but I wasn't hungry. It was head hunger, not stomach hunger. I am going to become stronger than my own deceitful mind.
Praying for you, Ursula, to know the peace that surpasses all understanding and that it will guard your heart and mind (Philippians 4) and to know with confidence that God IS doing a new thing in you! He really is! Isaiah 43:18, 19 promises us that he is...He delights over you with singing and quiets you with his love. He is mighty to save. You don't need *will* power.:-) He will do this in and through you as you release each thing individually to him, one at a time...Lord, please be with Ursula tonight and tomorrow. I pray that she will know your peace and that she will know that in her weakness, your strength is made perfect. I pray that she will know with confidence that you love her--that you have called her holy and blameless in your sight. I pray she would take the moment captive and surrender heart and head hunger to you. May she process the reasons for her head and heart hunger and go to the only One who can feed those needs, Lord...that is you. Be strong in her and give her confidence that what you have begun, you will perfect (Philippians 1:6). In the precious name of Jesus, Amen.
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