I'm taking a little break today from the norm to express some thoughts. We'll see if I do it at all well.
Yesterday, I deleted a couple of comments left on my blog anonymously. The commenter was being hurtful and not willing to leave their name so I felt it was my right as the owner of this blog to delete them.
They resulted from a thread I started on a forum that, in hindsight, was ill-conceived. I knew better and did it anyway and now it's done.
I just wanted to state publically, here on my blog, that I do not in any way advocate hatred toward any person, people group, race or any such thing. Ever! Not even against people who do heinous things that everyone would agree are heinous. Hate is a terrible thing.
At the same time, I believe in the Bible and when it says a thing is sin, I agree that it is. I realize and accept that others do not believe that the Bible is, or should be, referred to for direction. That is certainly everyone's right to believe. I also realize that to some, my belief in the bible seems foolish. I disagree, but I understand why you might think that. I, however, cannot change my belief because someone else thinks it's foolish.
My desire is to be a loving human being. My desire is to accept people where they are at and to enter into relationship with people. I enjoy relationship. I enjoy hearing different points of view. Even when I don't agree, I still am open to hearing how people see things. I enjoy dialoguing about differences as well. I want to know people and when I can, touch their lives in a positive way. I don't believe I have ever been able to reach this desire perfectly, but it is something I work at.
I don't enjoy or accept being told I am ignorant because I have a different opinion from the majority. I don't know anyone else who enjoys or accept that either.
Finally, I freely acknowledge my own sinfulness as a human being. Both now and in my past. I've made more choices than I can count that I now wish I could take back. The fact is that I can't take them back. I also realize that I will continue to make mistakes that hurt myself and others until the day I die.
I acknowledge that I wrestle with how to express my POV in a way that doesn't alienate anyone. I don't want to alienate people. It's the last thing I want to do! However, I am coming to the conclusion that in the discussion of some issues, it is nearly impossible to not alienate some people. Mainly because of foundational differences in idealogy.
I acknowledge that sometimes the way I express myself is terribly ineffective and even taken as hurtful. I hope I'll be forgiven for my failing in that area. I hope that anyone who has felt hurt by something I have said will accept my deepest apology for the hurt. It was never intended to be hurt. Truly.
It takes a lot of courage to express ones opinion, especially when it is in the minority. The risk that one will be knocked down as a result is high. Some might say I have more courage than sense. Maybe this is true. I do not claim to have more understanding than the next person. I'm trying to grow in my understanding. Every. Single. Day. I do try. I hope those of you who are angry with me can trust me with that.
I appreciate all of you who visit me in my journey through this life. Thanks for stopping by.